holidays sucks like seriously.
and i hate it when it come to the middle of the night.
i'll be there turn and toss around in my bed for like few hours
but still fail to fall asleep, so damn pissed.
eeyer stupid lah hate that feeling ttc.
i slept at about three yesterday. i'm dying if this continues.
blah blah blah.
and i think i have nothing to do thats why i'm thinking nonsense
and having stupid feelings that affect my mood.
i'm so dead. but still, i felt so uneasy whenever something bad happen.
its like it happen before, and i knew it'll happen but i just can't help.
it sucks to just stand there and watch the history happen in front of me again
its like double pain. i can't stand it sometimes.
its like when the wound had finally become scars, you took a knife and stab it again.
imagine what will happen? the wound will crack even more.
it gonna took a longer time to recover. ahh great. i'm crapping.
i don't know why sometimes got the feeling that i'm not important.
its like my existance is nothing, it brings no harm and also no benifits.
and i hate the feeling that people will only remeber me when they have problems.
and when it's solved, i'll be thrown away to a side.
until when they need me, they'll only look at me.
and i feel pathetic to be such a person to them.
no matter what, i'm always alone.
okay i'm still crapping. lol.
i don't know why i felt so angry when you get hurt.
its none of my business what.
you don't need me what right?
i don't have the right to be angry also.
ahh shit why can't i stop crapping?
21 more days more. i shall countdown. :/
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