i'm really not feeling right. why can't things just stay normal just for one second? why can't all the problem just leave me alone? yeah, i beg you. just for once then i'm fine with it. my brain need peace. it needs to stop working and just rest for a while. i can feel the tiredness its going through nowadays. thinking and thinking and thinking. why can't i just stop thinking? no, i can't no matter how hard i try. i'm thinking nonsense everytime. when i'm eating, watching tv, onlining and even when i'm lying on my bed. i'm pissed off even though its just a small matter. i'm just not in the mood to do everything. i know its my fucking problem. its none of other people's business. wah piang. i seriously going to explode soon. i hate it. i hate this feeling to the core now. can anyone tell me what the hell have i done to cause all these to happen?! i try so hard and keep pressuring myself just to satisfy everyone. but it seems that i have failed to do that. yeah i'm such a failure. ahh whatever. i know i shouldn't care to much. i'm just torturing myself. 

history keeps repeating. and its driving me crazy. :/

things just can't follow what i wish no matter how hard i try.

你曾经属于我，

但是现在你不再属于我，

以后也不会属于我。