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Mood isn't really that good these few days. Or maybe i should say it actually sucks la. Perhaps im too tired or what. Find it tired to keep smiling so yeah im sorry to let you all think that im angry when i just sit there quietly. Im feeling really unwell. Btw nowadays i find that i do enjoy to be alone sometimes. Feeling peaceful and calm. Its really a better choice than to talk and laugh when you're not in the mood to do so. At least no one gonna ask you what happen when you actually either don't know or don't wanna say. Still, wanna say thank you to sister. Was really touched that day. It's like i didn't spill out anything about it and she knows im not ok and why am i not ok. Thanks for looking into my eyes so seriously and ask me im ok not. Although i still say im ok, at least there's someone that understand me. :)

K anyway, that thing still bothering me la. Im sorry. It's not anyone's fault. It's mine. Im being too sensitive or maybe too insecure sometimes. But yeah, if you understand me well enough, you know it's kinda normal for me to act like this. Hey, you're reminded to be always clear of where you stand, don't get over the line. You need to take note of this in everything. Do you know that your existence always bring me the feeling of im the extra one? You wouldn't care about how other people feels. I wouldn't tell you this no matter what cuz i know history gonna repeat itself. I will just shut up and leave when i can't stand it anymore.



Sometimes i wonder, why do i even give a damn about everything?
You should know you shouldn't care cuz its ady not the first time.
What's wrong with you of keep acting like you're fine?
Aren't you tired enough? Why haven't you learn how to not care so much?

因为你,我连第二名都不是.
可不可以不要再来影响我?
你明知道不管我有多介意,我总是会选择走开.
你是要我走多远?


Didn't get to watch the last episode yesterday. But i just watched it on youtube. There's no ending. But overall, it's nice la. Rui en so damn pretty and so good in acting. Nice show. :DDD



我永远都是一个人
所以我在学着享受孤独




Happy birthday rachel yeo. (:




我知道
我会想你的

Saturday, March 31, 2012 12:21 PM back to top?
Mixed Feeling



Mixed feeling now.
One thing to say, im always not the priority for anyone, never.
You know how sad it is when you once thought that you're still something to that person, at least the second one that person will go to after the first.
But nah, not anymore.
Somebody is there to replace you ady and nowhere you are now.
The only thing you can do is yeah, tell yourself that its time to leave and do not be sad of it.
This is how pathetic i am.
Even though i give out everything, i will still end up getting nothing.
I should have known where i stand.
But you know, its kinda sucks when people only think of you when they have no one for them.
Its the moment when you feel like shouting "hey, do you think im your spare tyre?"

I hope im thinking too much.
Why do i keep feeling that you're trying to show off?
And you're like a different person when someone elder is around.
You wouldn't care about other ppl stucking there.
K whatever, it will end here.

I find that i couldn't tell all my problems to any particular person anymore.
Keeping things inside is torturing
But i got no choice.
No one is there for me to tell, or maybe im always considering too much before saying anything.
I do not want to cause stupid things to happen anymore.



When there is no trust, nothing is left.




不知道怎么了
突然发现你越来越重要
可是不应该是这样的
好像已经踏越安全地带
又要重蹈覆辙了
为什么好不容易筑起的心墙那么容易就瓦解?
我们不要吵架了好不好?
想要和你当永远的好朋友.







如果你离开了,
我真的会想念你
也会很难过





I fat fat ady la!
Salad is the nicest food ok.
Healthy and filling and not fattening.


Anyway, next wednesday.
You jiayou k?
Hope you will get what you expect.
don't too scared or nervous ady bah.
Remember that im always here for you.








Infatuation.

Friday, March 16, 2012 11:28 PM back to top?
Save It.





Exams are finally over. I know i seriously screwed it la but whatever la i did study hard for it k. Too stupid or what la. And i will start to get my results paper tomorrow. Oh hell, hope i wouldn't faint when i see my marks cuz apparently i did too much of careless mistakes. Lol. My mum gonna kill me when she know my results la. Its ok, its only the first exam. #selfcomfort but then you can't even do well for your first exam how far you can go for spm? K la crap.

And seriously, i maybe appear to be ok with everything cuz i will always try to be nice to the one around me. No matter whatever you all request i will try my best to get it done even though its troublesome sometimes. Treating other ppl with your heart but in the end this is the bullshit i get. I can seriously be as nice until something really pisses me off. The thing that i really cannot bear with it is when people only come to you when they need you for something. Do you called this as friends? K thanks to two of them if not i will be stuck there awkwardly that day. Appreciate it a lot. It may be a small matter to others but well, i know this is a sign of something worse happening after that. What do you treat me as? Do you still remember who is the one that help you when you first feeling uneasy? And yeah it makes me to be further apart from the one i care and the distance do affect both of us a lot. And so this is what i get from you? Im not disposable that you can always throw away when you don't need. Lol. And its ridiculous that you can now stick to the one that you once said you dislike her attitude. Hypocrite max. I know i don't have the right to say that cuz im one too sometimes. But seriously im feeling uncomfortable la. Whatever shit la, i shouldn't give a damn.

Yes history repeats.
Im always the one left behind.
Cuz no one will even care to take me away.
Im always the extra one.
Great.



Chubby face.
Who cares, i still rock this way.

Don't ever cry for those who doesn't worth for your tears.
Save it.





Im tired.
#kbye

Sunday, March 4, 2012 7:50 PM back to top?
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