Confused

Uhm. Finally comes the two weeks holiday. Im somehow not that excited that I thought I will be. Well perhaps I know the reason myself but well shall not state it here.

Anyway im quite screwed for the semester exam la. I have no idea how to face the music after I get my results. Im pretty sure mum wont let me out that often ady if I really did badly. :/



K im bored. So,
1.happy
2. Sweet
3. Lovely
4. Loyal

Wow ok. hahahahha.



Uhm I have no idea what should I do now. Like seriously im confused. Maybe i should control my feelings. Like what lyn said, dont hurt yourself.



This is exactly how I feel everytime uhm yeah.

HAHAHAHAHA ANDD ANDD ANDD



Hehehh enough of crapping.
Happy holidays ppl

Here's a selfie of mine



Jpj on wed. I have to pass ok I need to get my licence.





oh and imma miss you
Monday, June 17, 2013 1:55 PM back to top?

Singapore Trip :)

So im finally here again after err i think about a month. It's actually a miracle that i suddenly feel like blogging. Anyway i had my progress tests last week. I think it was horrible. I had never done my tests so badly before in my whole life. Physics and pure maths paper totally can very described as a bomb. I think there'sa possibility of 80% that i flunk it. I just hope i passed k if not i have no idea how am i gonna explain to my parents.

Anyways i went Singapore with all my college friends yesterday. Let me start my story. We went there by bus. Apparently me and celine were camwhoring like mad but most of the pictures are super blur cuz of the bus. Gossip like crazy in bus with caryl, jiayan, celine, lynette, meera, sin yun, wan jun and han wei. K shall skipped the contents cuz it's p n c.

After that, celine and i felt sleepy so we decided to sleep for a while. And meera just came and sit with us to kacau us. So yeah typical us we started talking again and our sleeping plan failed. We finally reached marina bay sands around eleven thirty i think. We went to the art and science museum. On the way walking i really find the shops in mbs super class lol i think i will never get to spend there omg. K so at the art and science museum. Group photo.



We went for "inside out". It's an exhibition of photography. I think only celine and i are interested with it la. I am so amazed by the beauty of arts. The photos are like so real that i could visual it like im really in it. Among so many types of photos the one that i prefer is still the one related to nature. The sea and snow makes me feel calm. Never get to take pic anyway.

Then we went for "the art of bricks". We can see a lot of model made of lego Omg trust me they are super nice. I will just post some of the pictures instead of describing it in words. So yeah.


I think of Megan when i see this.


Hehe this guy damn cool right. Me too la im imitating his pose XD


Apple


I heart you


Peace. Heh ignore that retarded face of mine.


DINOSAUR DAMN HUGE SIA THE MODEL.


Me and celine.


Me, caryl and jiayan


And so we went for lunch after that. Then, we are ready to leave for Sentosa. It was really unfortunate that the moment we reached there then it started raining. Went to candylicious for shelter. The moment i stepped in i can smell sweets and chocolates. It's like a heaven. Bought jellybeans and hershey chocolates there. Then we just walked around. And we decided to go to the beach although it was still raining. Walked by the beach and lol meera get super excited. Here are some pictures.





K and hey i like this picture of mine. Got feel right? :)


So we rushed back to the bus. We walked super fast my legs ached so much and i could hardly breathe. Sigh. Super tiring can. Before that we went breadtalk to buy bread. Apparently that was my dinner tho. I was happy there was green tea and read bean muffin. Those who know me well should know that i have obsession with these combinations. HAHAHA. K la so we went back college after that. It was a tiring but memorable day for us. Love all my college friends glad to get close with all of you XD

Somebody told me that im the best among all
Thanks for including me in your mei nv list tho :p
K la thanks a lot although idk you mean it or not





I think i have used to talking to you.
It's an habit now :)



Sunday, March 3, 2013 8:28 PM back to top?

New Life

Oh so hey. It had been a long time since i bothered my blog. Since it was already so dead for the past few months, maybe it's the time for me to revive it a bit. HAHAHAHAH.

Oh so i started college for about a month already. If ppl ask me how's college, and i will only have one word to say :tiring. Yes i only studied for a month but seriously i am feeling super duper ultra mega tired like practically everyday. Almost seven hours of class everyday and seriously its killing me. No time to do anything. Homework. Revision. Presentation. Crappppp.

Oh well. I took a levels anyway. I seriously hope i wouldnt regret and i can do well. A levels are hard and stressful plus i dont know whats wrong with me i took pure science. HAHAHAH maybe im a little mad. Three sciences. I have no idea how am i going to cope but i promise i will do my best. :) thinking about my future always makes me headache. I wanna be a pharmacist but im scared its not a good choice. Lesigh. Dilemma.

Spm results will be out in another one month i guess. Seriously i am so panoroid whenever i think about it. It's like i have no confidence that i can reached what my parents have expected. Or maybe i should say it is also my expactation. Lol. But yeah, i had put so much effort throughout le year so i hope i really did well. No matter what, what's done is already done.

Cny in another two days. Finally i can rest. Shopped for new clothes and shoes last week. Went for facial three days ago. I nearly died when she squeezed my pimples :/ Went for hair cut the next day. The hairdresser keep telling me to curl my hair cuz he says i look really nice in that. But my mum dont let so yeah he did a temporary one for me. I find him quite good looking actually HAHAHAHH. okay anyway this is le pic of me with big curls. :)


So straight or curl?

And so i went for manicure yesterday. Loving my nails.


So many hw undone still went for manicure. Awesome like that lah. So i did my hw until two oclock and i ended up having veh bad flu now. Great. I seriously hate the weather and my nose.

Of course. A big thank you to daddy and mummy for spending so much on me. Wee~

Till then. Its a really long post.










can't take my eyes off you
this is kinda weird









如果那个人是你
那该有多好?

Friday, February 8, 2013 4:36 PM back to top?

原来



I will never give you the second chance to hurt me again.
How i wish i could turn back time.









原来心酸是这样的
原来无所谓很难


Tuesday, May 29, 2012 4:16 PM back to top?

Dafuq?!



It had been a long time since i last updated my blog. Thanks to exam. Mid year exam sucks really bad. The whole month just past like this i don't have the feeling that i live through this month cuz the only thing i did is just study. Luckily its over now but i think i gonna vomit blood when i get back my results. Esp bm, thanks to megan's beloved teacher that i think my chance of getting an A is like 0.01%. I nearly exploded when he was talking in front that day. He was so sarcastic -.- and biology paper 2 is the worst paper ever. Nearly fainted doing it dafuq i will just die k. No eyes to see ady. What's the point of putting so much of effort when the results are still like this? Lol.

And you know im so pissed off since thursday. Mood sucks and im tired so i slept early that night. The next day morning saw that i received a message from sister and guess what i wasn't surprised. I knew that it will happen. Went school and sister told me everything. HAHAHA i freaking cried. But still thanks sister for being there for me. :) wanted to act like nothing happen after that but the moment when i saw her my anger just rised like that i think im gonna explode. Cried for the second time when yi ling asked me are you ok. HAHAHA k im useless. Third time was during teacher day celebration. What is wrong with me -.-

So yeah to the person that pissed me off. Oh hey,



Can you stop all the nonsense? What i can't stand is at first you're still telling me that you very paiseh cuz you both very bu shou and stuff but the next second you can stick to her like wth. Don't act in front of me i wouldn't appreciate your fakeness, hypocrite. It's like even other ppl notice that so can you imagine how over you're? Do you ever notice wtf you're doing to me? I tried not to give a damn but dafuq you're crossing the line. The feeling when you wanted to say something and other ppl just continue with hers non stop so you're like wtf and walked off. Sucks a lot k. Was so speechless and frustrated that time and you can still nicely ask me the question. Who do you think you're to ask me that question? Who do you think you're to know the real answer of the question? Then you can still nicely tell me that huh you sure not even i will le you won't me. Ma de just stfu la. Ugh. You think i care about how you feel?

And then. So sorry to say that there's still people telling me what you did even if im not there. Other people also get pissed at you ady can you imagine how i feel? Or do you even realise what you did? And lol even an outsider think that it's a bit over. Now i understand the definition of not close. Thanks for teaching me that. The worse thing is you yourself never even mention a word about it. So are you guilty or what? If you tell me maybe i wouldn't be that angry. Wtf. When i tell other people about this, her first reaction was wtf i listen ady also very bu shuang lo i can imagine how you feel. Get it? You're really over this time.

Oh ya another thing. I know that now i stopped telling you stuff ady. But you don't have to keep telling me that i am close with other people. Look at yourself before spouting all these. You're the one who causes all these. Thank you very much. Now i understand the fact that when one person get close to another, they will eventually become the same type of person. So now you're annoying and selfish and kns like your best friend ady. Now you get why we're getting further apart? Crap.

Happy holiday peeps. :)
All of us acting lala <3



Damn i am getting fatter.
Need to control





I love him.

Saturday, May 26, 2012 3:22 PM back to top?

Mood isn't really that good these few days. Or maybe i should say it actually sucks la. Perhaps im too tired or what. Find it tired to keep smiling so yeah im sorry to let you all think that im angry when i just sit there quietly. Im feeling really unwell. Btw nowadays i find that i do enjoy to be alone sometimes. Feeling peaceful and calm. Its really a better choice than to talk and laugh when you're not in the mood to do so. At least no one gonna ask you what happen when you actually either don't know or don't wanna say. Still, wanna say thank you to sister. Was really touched that day. It's like i didn't spill out anything about it and she knows im not ok and why am i not ok. Thanks for looking into my eyes so seriously and ask me im ok not. Although i still say im ok, at least there's someone that understand me. :)

K anyway, that thing still bothering me la. Im sorry. It's not anyone's fault. It's mine. Im being too sensitive or maybe too insecure sometimes. But yeah, if you understand me well enough, you know it's kinda normal for me to act like this. Hey, you're reminded to be always clear of where you stand, don't get over the line. You need to take note of this in everything. Do you know that your existence always bring me the feeling of im the extra one? You wouldn't care about how other people feels. I wouldn't tell you this no matter what cuz i know history gonna repeat itself. I will just shut up and leave when i can't stand it anymore.



Sometimes i wonder, why do i even give a damn about everything?
You should know you shouldn't care cuz its ady not the first time.
What's wrong with you of keep acting like you're fine?
Aren't you tired enough? Why haven't you learn how to not care so much?

因为你,我连第二名都不是.
可不可以不要再来影响我?
你明知道不管我有多介意,我总是会选择走开.
你是要我走多远?


Didn't get to watch the last episode yesterday. But i just watched it on youtube. There's no ending. But overall, it's nice la. Rui en so damn pretty and so good in acting. Nice show. :DDD



我永远都是一个人
所以我在学着享受孤独




Happy birthday rachel yeo. (:




我知道
我会想你的
Saturday, March 31, 2012 12:21 PM back to top?