我真的不在乎了吗？
我真的不爱你了吗？
我真的完全放下了吗？
我好乱
不管了啦
Wednesday, May 26, 2010 9:04 AM back to top?

insecure):


i'm sorry
i don't know why i fuyan you like this
i know u're angry
i'm sorry



thank you michelle,yi ling, edlyn and colleen
u guys are reali awesome
love lots
9:02 AM back to top?

thank you

i know that i'm useless
i know that i'm lousy
i know that i'm selfish
i wanna say sorry if i hurt any of you
i wanna say thank you for all the support and care
i'm happy to have friends like you all
you all make my life awesome
i love u guys

LEE YI LING
EDLYN HENG
MICHELLE CHIN
COLLEEN TIONG

frens forever!!!
Saturday, May 22, 2010 3:10 PM back to top?

my brain

i don't know how to describe what feeling i'm having now...bt it really sucks...i'm so happy that these few days there are no more tears on my face to accompany me at night...but yeah...i think these days going to come back again...i don't want...please...

err...my mind keep reminding me that i'm stupid...and i hate that...what the hell izit in my brain now??? something wrong already izit??? that time accident bang dao so now become like this already??? argh...should i go and bang again to get it back to normal??? stupid...i feel like crying now...can someone give me a hug now??? and tell me that everything will be fine soon...i'm feeling insecure again...haha...i'm going crazy already...

everyone is so bad mood nowadays...including me...emo season is back again...HAHAHAHAHA...

i love you
Thursday, May 20, 2010 8:53 PM back to top?

傻

i don't know what happen to me again...i seriously very xin ku now...we already said that we'll be like frens like how we used to be...right??? but then...we are like perfect strangers now...we tried so hard to talk to each other...but yeah...fail...we met each other so many times on friday...we're like so near to each other but our distance is like far...there's only complete silence...this is not what i want...my heart was bleeding i tink...pain dao dunno how to say already...what to do now??? i don't know...

hmm...sorry to those who keep advising me...cuz at the end i still choose to trust her...maybe u all will say that i'm sha...but yeah...i admit that...hmm...i believe whatever she said before...i believe that she did care...i believe that she's not that heartless...err...i know that i'm stupid...but haiz...don't know larh...whatever...seriously shall kill myself now...

I MISS YOU A LOT A LOT
I'M STILL WAITING FOR YOU
I STILL LOVE YOU
I STILL CARE

tired of life
tired of smiling
tired of laughing
tired of acting tht i don't care
tired of acting tht i don't love
tired of acting tht i ady let go
tired tired tired

对不起
我原来还爱你
Saturday, May 15, 2010 2:05 PM back to top?

stupid


Wednesday, May 12, 2010 9:30 PM back to top?

我很累真的很累
怎么一直有种感觉
一直提醒我说你已经不在乎了
有人问过我
“当你在掉泪时，你觉得她会像你这样吗？值得吗？”
我当时傻掉了，因为我没有信心回答她
我想说你会的，可是我说不出
因为这好像不是事实了
我不懂我还能怎样
你想放弃了，对吧？
如果这样你能开心，我真的无所谓的
或许会伤心很久
可是我不在乎
谢谢你这两个月给的一切
我们真的不一样了
我真的不想现在结束
对不起
我爱你

just do anyting tht cn make u happy...even if u hurt me...i wun bother...i love u...izit the end ady??? i donno...i feel lyk doing something to my hand nw...i tink i'll...
Saturday, May 8, 2010 10:56 PM back to top?

LOST


Monday, May 3, 2010 4:45 PM back to top?

my feeling :(

i feel lyk giving up ady...
i feel tht i'm lyk a loser in everything...
i feel tht i'm nt good enough=lousy...
i feel tht i'm reali nt fit to be in dere...
i feel so disapponted of myself...
i feel lyk letting go of wad i hv hold onto for so long...
i feel lyk continue acting stupid...
i feel tht i'm useless...
i feel tht i'm just a burden...
i feel tht i can't bring any happiness to u...
i feel tht i'm unwanted...
i feel tht i'm selfish...
i feel so freaking tired...
i feel lyk crying nw...
i feel lyk punching de wall nw...
i feel lyk cutting my hand nw...
i feel lyk ending my life nw...

i'm sorry for everything
Sunday, May 2, 2010 10:19 PM back to top?

END

sha gua ar...
i'm seriously vy hurt plus disappointed plus dwn at first...
i cried lyk siao and punch my hand on the wall...
i dunno why u still mind...
and i only noe after reading ur blog...
u din tell me by urself bt i'm de one to ask u...
dis make me feel more worse...
bt then...
i'm ok ady nw...
thanks to edlyn and yi ling and u...
i believe wad u promise me...
cnt break ur promise ar...
i love u...

u dun tink so much ady lar...i'm alright nw...u're nt lousy...really...u're an awesome plus best ah jie to me k??? i dun care whether u're perfect or nt...i just love u...u dun care hw much u hurt me...i just dun hate u...i dun care if its ur fault...i just wun bu shuang u...i'll try my vy best to be the one to give in...cuz i need u...amanda ho yin yee...believe in urself k? my beloved sister...everything will be fine de...thanks for de last fifty five days...life is meaningful with u...HAHAHAHAHA...i <3 u
Saturday, May 1, 2010 8:08 PM back to top?